A New Way of Thinking

I haven't been happy with the circumstances that I have had over the last month with Medi-Flex. It is very depressing. I had a time of grieving and now I am ready to move on. I have had problems with motivation to work (still at this company till I find something or they replace me) and to take care of myself. My room is a mess and I have things piled all over my desk at home. I walk around saying how I can't work here and I am having a hard time doing this or that. I also have been struggling with staying in college. I want to quit. I don't want to have to do homework or study. I have decided to move on and change my thinking.

I am telling myself I can work, I can get through this. My outlook is already starting to change. I just have to keep this up and motivate myself. I also received my vitmains yesterday and I have been feeling a lot better now that I am taking them again.

That Day is Ending

It is almost 5pm. I will be leaving to go home soon. I don't like job interviews. I can't stand the fact of going and proving to someone that they need me there. I have to go and put on a show to get the job. I thought interviews were about finding out if you want this person to work for you. What you really get is a big act with an exaggerated resume. The best actor wins. I was asked a question, Where do you see yourself in 5 years. How do you answer, Financially free and working for myself with passive income? I don't think that will work to well. The guy was really nice.


I do very well when I go in and we talk about the company and the job and then my experience. It is rare to get that kind of interview anymore. Now adays they talk about the company and job but then they want to ask situational questions. Tell me about a time when.......... I can't remember this morning and now i am suppose to remember some time back of a situation. What a loss. They may call me back. The guy said it is a 3 step interview process. Great, CASTING CALL. Lets see which actor has what it takes to hang around. I was doing very well with life until this company Medi-Flex told me that they are not hiring me and that is it. My life fell apart at that momemnt and now I am working to pick up the pieces. I have to work on my goals and all that great stuff.

Maybe I can go work in a factory. Do they ask these kinds of questions in interviews?

Today is that Day, Job Interview

Today at 2pm I have a job interview. It has taken a month to get 1. That is depressing. I think this one will be a great opportunity for me and will give me more responsibility than what I have right now. It also will pay more and give me benefits. I ran out of USANA vitamins and so I am dragging today. My next shipment should arrive this week. I really need them so I can function halfway normal. I am excited about this opportunity. I am hoping to get the job so I can go on with life and stop worrying about what will happen day to day with my job.

I am in college working on a degree in IT. I am not motivated to do homework or study. Not only that, it is so difficult to study when I can't remember any of it anyway. This is one of the reasons I didn't go to college in the first place. I don't like taking medications and there are to many side effects that I don't want to wait and see what the long term ones are like. I was taking 2000 mg of Tryptophan every day which helped a lot. It also helped with my depression that I fight everyday.


I just started a new USANA business. (http://www.formywealth.com is my website) I am testing out the products and recommendations for ADHD. It has already started helping and has only been a month. I stopped taking the tryptophan which is a stupid move in the middle of a school semester. I do stupid things all the time, thats why I am so much fun.

I also have a job interview tomorrow with a company for a Systems support TEch job. I am currently working at Medi-Flex Inc as a contractor. They promised to hire me on and replaced my manager, now I won't have a job soon. So much for a company to rely on.